Welcome back to Sunday Somethings!
It’s been about a month since I have done another Sunday journal entry but that’s okay. Journalling or writing shouldn’t feel like a chore. I want to make sure I show up and practice discipline and commitment with myself, but it’s about balance. I was freshly inspired to sit down and create one again through some words of appreciation and affirmation from a new writer friend I have. She said “our job as writers is to live first, experience first, then sit down and tell those stories later.” I suppose I was allowing myself to live and experience, but that was a sign for me to create again too, so thank you Brianna. You can find her on itsbrisav.com for your fair share of motivating and inspiring words too :)
Lets begin, shall we? We have a month of catching up to do!
Week 2: May 1st
Pressing Thoughts
Greater consciousness ultimately means allowing room for greater pain. But the sense of grief or pain, can only mean there was such amount of love to begin with. Yin and yang. Human experience.
Books are so personal. I feel that when I’m reading a book, I imagine the author to write characters as pieces of themselves. There are just so many words to choose from, and ways to convey stories so the finished product was THEIR finished project, and they let us into their raw thoughts. They chose every single word as they did to convey THEIR story perfectly. Then they share it with the world. That’s so intimate and heartfelt. So when walking through a library, you’re walking through hundreds of peoples raw thoughts and figurations, first formed in their head.
Time is something I have no concept of. Time kind of scares me.
I still think “Don’t Look Up” was a warning from all of our favorite actors and if you disagree, you are a bot. (Bot: definition: part of the matrix; not real; might as well be holographic)
I really need a good sunrise morning to myself.
People see you how they choose to see you.
The Shrek “All Star” song is a great workout song, trust me on that.
I love seeing people step out of their shells and create. I feel as though this past year I’ve seen and felt so much creative energy and I love it. I think we were made to create and I’m visibly noticing a strong shift towards that with confidence. This is the only energy I am striving to be around.
Affirmations really do work!
Humans can ruin even the intangible (love, trust, compassion etc)
Experiences
A really good friend of mine gifted me an evil eye bracelet. It was fun to receive such a good intentioned gift, but under weird circumstances that made me question some of my surroundings.
I went to my friends house without her being home to see her family. Her mom and I had the longest, deepest talk just about love, life, and pain and loss. She was sharing her experiences and lessons with me. I started tearing up because it was one of those moments that I knew I was going to remember forever. She felt so warm and was talking to me straight out of her heart, so motherly and nurturing which is something I am entirely not accustomed to, but was extremely grateful for. She saw me starting to cry and brought me in for a tight hug saying “Oh, my beloved, you have such a sweet, sweet heart.” And I cried even more.
I lived a rom-com scene in my real life in NYC. You know those tourist busses where the people sit facing outwards, getting a tour and speech around the city? Me and this boy I like (lets call him mystery man for now) were walking down a pretty empty street, going at the same rate as this bus. I did a large animated wave to them, and they all waved back. We continued walking at the same speed as they were moving, mystery man and I entertaining them until we reached the stop light. This one old guy I made eye contact with on the bus did a motion with his hands signifying for us to kiss, that I didn’t catch onto at first. Then everyone on the bus started doing it. We saw, we realized, and then we kissed, following with a cheer from the tourists. It was super cute in the moment, and felt like a good omen for us. Like we may be supported by the universe. :)
What I’m Watching
Midnight in Paris was such a cute movie with a great concept and who doesn’t love an Owen Wilson movie
The new Kardashians show hahaha, definitely another guilty pleasure. I honestly just love seeing and analyzing the way they live.
Inception- I watched it for my first time but I need to watch it again to fully understand the complexity of it. I said it was my “trial run” for it, but I know I will love it and think it’s probably the coolest thing.
I started Kiki’s Delivery Service, a Studio Ghibli film and it’s cute so far. I don’t usually have much attention span for animated things but so far I’m invested in her little adventure. And the scenes are so pretty!
What I’m Reading
I just finished ‘Outline’ by Rachel Cusk and the writing and imagery were so beautiful and vivid. She was a great story teller, but I feel as though it was cut off too short, and I could’ve and would’ve read way longer of whatever she had to say. I guess that’s a good thing and a bad thing.
The Wisdom of Insecurity by Alan Watts- so many notable analogies and realizations about the human race and why we think the way we think. I’ve geared away from self help books for a while but with him, he’s not writing to teach you, he’s writing to tell you. That may not make sense but it makes sense for me.
I just started ‘Lovers and Writers’ by Lily King (reading this with mystery man). I feel it’s too soon to give my two cents, so I’ll save this update for next week :)
Journal Prompt for you to do
What are your biggest fears in a relationship? How do those subconsciously make you act in relationships? How can you work through that?